Unfortunately, I could not celebrate the way I originally wanted to celebrate my birthday this year. My BFF was out of town, my other close friends were either busy or broke, and, most importantly, my cousin died this week. His funeral was today. I spent most of the morning frazzled because I was unsure as of what to wear and where the funeral was. I finally decided to wear head to toe black and a veil around my neck and hair. It seemed appropriate as my cousin's death came at the untimely age of 46; and he died of cancer. The second reason I decided on wearing the veil is because of my family's fixation on my hair. "How is it?" "Is it straight or curly?" "Do you have a relaxer?" With the veil and the severity of the family gathering, I only received minimal inquiries about my hair.
Because the funeral coincided with my birthday,I had more inclination to reflect and ponder life's meaning. Above all things, I want to be thought of as useful and loving. I also realize how short my own life is:
James 4:14 Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.
And I thought of how important it is to utilize the few moments each of us have left to the best, fullest potential.
How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.- Annie Dillard